today during the prayer meeting before watchnight service when we started sharing about ways God has presented Himself to us over the past year, i didn't know what i wanted to say. but it suddenly struck me to talk about my piano exam in april and how i flunked it, and was devastated from the moment i touched the keys on the steinway in the exam room kuz i knew i was going to fail. it took me a long time to get over it, and if you ask me when i got over it, i'd tell you 31st dec 9.30pm when i shared and bawled like an idiot to the YFers.

because at that moment i realised, that once i quit my fridays were free and i started playing regularly for worship, for p&p, and although i'm still super nOoB at it, i've seriously improved over the past half a year (keyboard). and how i've just drawn so much closer to Him; and to the YF through serving in music.

that's how God presented Himself to me most vividly in 2007, a revelation on the last day at 9.30 pm of the year, that He knows best and has His own plans for us.

for camp this year as well. i rmb kaiwen, ezra, marilyn & i fretting about how the camp committee was going, how we felt they were going too slowly, that there were so many things that were missed out in the planning, so many things that could go wrong. and they did; but with prayer, everything turned out great. weather during campfire was perfect, we were allowed to have noisy worship & open sermons, we weren't charged for the charred campfire pit cover, no spiritual attacks.

prayer meetings. when we started out, the first official one (15th Sept) with only kaiwen, marcus & myself. once there was only kaiwen & me. we felt like stopping e meetings until we'd gathered more ppl, but prayer kept us through, one of our constant supplication prayers being more people passionate for God and joining us in prayer. in november our average attendance was 6. just now, on the last day of the year, TWENTY-ONE people came.


my greatest blessing of the year? - BBPC YF. every single person in it. beloved Exco, for always being there for me and being the best bunch of people i've ever worked with; worship ppl, for always encouraging me in my keyboarding; camp committee; bubbleteaclub members, for being so much fun; CG people, for being awesome and making BS hordes of fun; sunday lunchmates (redside! yellowside!); for everyone else who're just there. thank you!

outside of church i've experienced and learnt so much more too. community service - from LDP to High Five to Creative Home; bass clarinet & playing for NYCB - SYF & Appassionata XI; culture & arts - watched the most theatre productions / musicals / etc i've ever done so in a year; life - started teaching piano; music - started jazz piano, played guzheng for hmp concert. can't finish listing them all, but 2007 has just truly been a year of so so much.

once again i look upon the cross where You died
i'm humbled by Your mercy, and i'm broken inside
once again i thank You
once again i pour out my life

(once again, matt redman)